Last night I decided to place a few gemstones under my pillow to seek insight into my current situation and mission. I chose Nuumite to eliminate any psychic manipulation, negative energy or facades. Black Kyanite for dream recall (very difficult for me - even if I'm woken up immediately with a journal beside the bed I can't recall) and healing dreams, as well as connecting to spirit guides. Sodalite for understanding circumstances, cancelling out environmental energy pollution and uniting intuition with logic. Finally, I selected Rhodonite to assist with a traumatic past and a recent abandonment by my fiancé. With the stones under my pillow I went to sleep.
I "woke up" in the same room that I was in. I would have sworn that my eyes were open the room was so detailed, but in retrospect I realize they must have still been shut. Dangling on a long thin silk from the ceiling was a spider with very spindly legs. It was a light tan color. Intuitively I was unable to tell if the spiders was dangling down towards me, or had been "sucked" up out of me and was retreating on it's cord. I also couldn't tell if the "watching" was protective or harmful in nature, as my overriding fear of spiders colored the entire experience. I wanted to sit up immediately and smash it and was horrified the sanctity of my rest/bedroom had been violated (Really, this basement is rather prone to spiders.)
Immediately, following my recoil, I "saw" a swirl of blue light on the night table beside my bed and associated with the protection of AA Michael. It was at this point that I believe I actually opened my eyes. I then saw that there was no spider, no silken thread, and no blue light anywhere in the room. However, I know I saw them as real as if they had been in the room - they were in the room and so was I. It wasn't a dream, but I'm not sure what to call that state.
(Please note I have a horrifyingly strong aversion to spiders dating back to early childhood. Supposedly I used to pick them up and play with them until my mother told me that some spiders bite. I have no memory of this, but she insists this is what transpired. I only recall being terrified of them in our unfinished basement, later when I was picking fruit as a teen, and subsequently they seem uncannily attracted to me and others 'like-purposed'. If anyone has any theories for why spiders seem to only come out when certain people are around (those averse to them and are spiritually sensitive), I would love to hear it.)
