I know that you think that you are OK, kind of, sort of but the real truth is "You really don't know what to feel!" Face it; you are presently caught up in an overwhelming pandemonium of feelings and emotions. You are just not sure what part of our existence to trust. You know that you want change; of course you do, as change is natural even if it comes in little droplets of moments. But, like the rest of us, you don’t quite know what to do with the tremendous deluge of change that is facing us today in a world, and on a planet struggling to exist and become full of promise.
Change can hurt! Tomorrow is no longer guaranteed to you or us. Even the teachers of our Holy Books are beginning to tell us that judgment day is here, or at the very least, near. Have you asked yourself “Why is it almost a daily occurrence for you to wake up with this New Age, almost schizophrenic, mind that tells you ‘You are happy!’; making you smile and stretch out your arms to embrace the sun and your day! Then in the next moment, It, that devilish other mind, says ‘No, you are not!’ and you feel overwhelmed by fear and dread, of things that you have no conscious name for; till you cry and pull the blankets up and back over your head…proclaiming in a whimper or boldly out loud ‘It’s too hard!’”
And what about your biological/genetic clock? Is it also telling you/us that in order to survive as a human being, as a species, it is time to/for change! Have you asked yourself today “What is making me want to stay where I am and want to go forward at the same time?” Is the back and forth momentum of it all, driving you crazy or at the very least “getting on your last nerve”?
Touch me, see me, feel me! What about your/our own “human sensory/social needs? This five and even six senses engagement gives us great solace! How does it impact the ability to change? Raise your hand; if you are willing to admit to your spending an inordinate amount of time looking, wishing for a solution outside of your own inner knowing! You know; like the numerous times you have looked for those pre-made and convenient “extraneous” causes, groups, religions, political ideologies that you “wanted and needed” to trust to be perfect in supporting your way of being in the world. In a bit of a lazy kind of way; you half consciously/almost blindly joined in with others as they cried out for “justice!” It did not matter whether you could donate a lot of energy, time or resources to the chosen outer cause, as long as you could read about it, or see it, in some definable glory with your own two eyes. Yes, it is a hard thing to admit to yourself, or the world, that it did not truly matter what the banner read that they carried in the front of their march; as long as you could find some comfort in being with others that you had a warm feeling toward; and hopefully vice versa!
And while we are being super honest here, will you admit that often you want change but change is hard!
So, what is so hard about changing? After all, you have read all the right books, taken all the empowerment classes and meditated and/or prayed until your heart “hath bled”….so what is the deal? Why is it so hard to let go of the “old you” and embrace the new idea of you, that you so dearly want to create and hold…to walk the talk and just be? Maybe it is because you/we all just need more real-time or tangible help with putting the pieces of “The Big Picture” together; as to what that change should look like. You certainly don’t want to make a mistake in judgment here…too much is at stake! Where are the real sages and teachers when you can’t afford to pay the tuition or service fees?
Yes, fully/consciously participating in change is exhausting; and your designer personality (the one that you created as an overlay to help you be OK in the world) fights your true/divine spirit every step of the way! So what else is new? What is new is you’re asking yourself “How long can you avoid going inside to “the silence” of the inner-voice of unconditional love and acceptance of all that you truly are…all that we truly are! How long before you go inside and find hidden unchangeable/immutable truths given to you via Divine Grace? Yes, it requires a leap of faith off a mountain of familiar ways of being into an abyss of unknown promising realities. With only the two cousins Trust and Faith to maintain our conviction, you will “digress not” into the temptation to retreat back into the safety of the old and outmoded ways of our societies. Change is going to come, with or without your or our participation. The questions always are “How much do you/we want to participate with The Divine Heart and Mind of God, The Creator of All Things Great and Small in the designing of the parameters of that change?” and “Are we willing to do the “hard” work to become fit and able, and of sound heart and mind, to make the changes that you/we all innately crave deep inside. “For this is the sacred place where only the smallest child knows and can thrive…the place where the small ego is still too young to govern our thoughts and lives!” Love Your SisterFriend Marie D. McCohnell, www.foodforhearts.com and with the help and support of SisterFriend Bonnie D. Hill 2/12/2013
