At both Vipassana and Enlightenment Intensive workshops, I used to guide the work I did by the evidence of the breath.
Many vasanas show up as resistance to the breath. They do so because they result in muscular tension in the body. The holding that that represents impedes the breath. I would use a slow inbreath to inform me as to the nature of the resistance pattern I was in: Was it anger? Resentment? Self-righteousness?
So it’s no surprise to me to see myself consulting the breath to take the measure of the energetic changes we’re presently experiencing, as reflected in my physical frame.
And what I find is almost no significant impediment to an easy breath in and out.
That doesn’t mean I’ve sourced or completed all my vasanas. I know I haven’t. But it may mean that I’ve sourced the majority of the muscular left-overs of those vasanas, the majority of the bands of tension that we all usually carry around, that give us so many of our aches and pains.
My own observations support what Aisha North said yesterday that “so many old scars and bonds have been broken and removed.” She added:
“When the blockages are removed, you stand freer to start to really connect with your own energy, the whole of your being, that is contained not only within this physical body of flesh and blood on Planet Earth, but also all of those higher aspects of you whom you have been separated from for such a long time.” (1)
For me there’s no more powerful evidence of our continuing movement out of the lower vibrations than how I feel. If incredible events are happening around me and I don’t feel any more exhilaration, aliveness or satisfaction with life than I did before, I have a hard time getting excited about the external changes.
But if I feel enhanced exhilaration, aliveness and satisfaction with life, I confess that I’m not as driven to seek external or tangible evidence for Ascension. Without a perceptible change in me, things are not happening, as far as I’m concerned. And I see many perceptible changes in me.
The ability to breathe easily in and out without noticeable resistance is matched by a baseline sense of equanimity and a continual feeling of love that arises within me. I do feel liberated from something and I can only conceive of that being the detritus of my past.
I’m tempted to say that all the clearing work of the past three years is at last paying off. Certainly our sources suggest that it is. Jesus through John Smallman, for instance, suggests that it’s becoming harder for us to feel bitter and rancorous.
“It is becoming ever harder for anyone to bear a grudge or a resentment. Whereas before, many on Earth enjoyed holding on to grudges with a sense of bitter satisfaction as they planned vengeance or restitution against the one who had hurt or offended them; now that sense of satisfaction is hollow or lacking, and they are puzzled.
“That is an early sign of awakening. If it happens to you, welcome it and rejoice. Your times for bitterness are at an end! Maybe you were even unaware of clinging to rancor or a need to punish, but now that the sense of closure it brought is fading, you are becoming aware of it.” (2)
All of what used to bother me seems to have dissipated, whether for this moment or forever I don’t know. But this ability to just be in the feelings of love and harmony is more compelling and irresistible than even feelings of hunger or thirst. My hunger and thirst have always been for this and now we’re reaping the benefits, it seems, of all the work we engaged in whose end never seemed to be in sight.
Things will get better than this but this is certainly a stage of events that satisfies me as much or more than any time I can remember in the past.
Footnotes
(1) “Aisha North: The Manuscript of Survival – Part 319,” June 6, 2013 at http://aishanorth.wordpress.com
(2) Jesus through John Smallman, June 5, 2013, at http://johnsmallman2.wordpress.com
http://goldenageofgaia.com/2013/06/the-evidence-of-the-breath/
