Welcome to Brenda's Blog

I don't know what I'm writing when I start this. It has something to do with my heart feeling cold, though.

There's a positive and negative to everything. I haven't been meditating daily, like I know I should. I'm recogizing the differences now. Postive and negative. Dark and light.

When I don't meditate, I'm cold. I know I'm cold. My heart is cold and mine and that's it. I recogize others, but I don't really seeeeee them.

When I do meditate I am warm. I am kind. I am compassionate. I am miserable.

What?

You heard me, I am miserable.

That doesn't make sense.

When I do meditate, I am giggly and I am nice and I am warm, I am so warm. My heart is warm and soft. I wake up in the mornings and cry and cry and cry. I don't want to keep living in this 3D world. The thought of getting out of bed, and going out in 3D rattles me.

So when I don't meditate. I still smile. I'm still kind, but I am hard and cold.

It's not something I think that others notice the way I do. They still see the smile, they still get treated kindly. But not as kindly as they could.

I don't want to venture into that 3D world, but I have to.

When I don't meditate, I can get by. I don't have an aching feeling in my heart, a longing for something better.

What's worse? I'll tell you.

When I don't meditate, there's nothing pushing me. I'm "content", for lack of a better word. I don't realize that aching and longing, it's hidden inside of me. Buried in the layers of density from 3D living to keep it hiding from me, so it's not there to give me that motivation.

I don't want to go out in the 3D world, but I have to. I have to because someday, I won't have to.

Does that make sense?

Good.

Be free my brothers and sisters! Free in your thoughts, actions and voice! It is not about how many times a day you meditate, or how many people you are able to awaken from moment to moment. It is the ability to know the truth and find your true Divine joy in that truth! Your freedom can never be taken away from you. Your freedom can never be restricted. Each and every one of us has an inner flame that burns brighter than any star in the universe. Simply allow it to be recognized by you and it will shine for all! Who cares when the the mass arrests occur. Who cares when first contact is made. There is one Divine truth and that is this, we are the Divine light and no matter what happens that can never be taken away or extinguished! Let that thought, that truth be your inspiration and strength! Shine every single moment of your existence on this beautiful sentient being! You will have a much more profound effect than any protest or movement imagined. The smile in your heart will do more for humanity than any voice or idea! Make that your strength and share it with all. Embrace yourself at all times no matter how many moments you get caught up in worry. Embrace yourself no matter how many moments you spend crying or depressed. When you do this you are embracing all of humanity with Divine love and acceptance!
I love you all and I send my Divine light to each and every one of you! No matter the illusion of physical separation it is felt by all!