10-11-12 Bill Ballard ~ New Higher Frequency Energies Incoming ~ Times They ARE a Changin

This is the first time in twenty years I've seen and heard another human talk openly about ascension. Powerful. Very powerful to see someone treat it like the reality I've always known it to be.
I don't agree with the thoughts about others going through their suffering. My guess is that this kind of joy comes from deep suffering and emotional release. As blissful as I can get, I can never be free from what I needed during the dark nights of my soul, when one kind word, one moment of peace with someone would have spared me the despair I often found myself in. Ever mindful, ever watchful am I of my arrogance. I allow myself so little only because I carry with me memory of a time when this spiritual arrogance I practiced drove another to ending their life. Being made to feel impossibly irrevocably broken by virtue of having experiences and traits others judge"less than". Oh, beware.
I don't see your exuberance as anything but delightful. I wonder if the boss was just so overwhelming... Sometimes it's all I can do but burst into laughter, or song, and sometimes I do. Ever mindful of the quiet one in the corner, too shy to even give eye contact. To them (me) even joy is foreign and can very easily lead to further self hate, for not being able to feel joy.
I know not all lightworkers, or people in general, have it that bad, but many do. I did. I deserved compassion And pity, and more tlc and less judgment than I ever got.