question about feeling disconnected

Hi Arizona,

I can fully relate to what you're saying.  It was a year ago that this started for me.  It was so encompassing, the desire to do nothing, the total lack of interest in anything, that I chose to do nothing.  I was in a situation where I needed to find new employment, or forfeit my super-cool digs four blocks from the beach in Santa Barbara.  I ended up doing nothing because I simply couldn't. For months I watched my situation deteriorate, fully aware of what I could do to save myself.  In spite of this, I did nothing.  I watched it collapse and decided to let the chips fall where they may.  It may not have been the wisest choice from a 3D perspective, but it was the choice I made, and I have no regrets.

Needless to say, I lost my cool bungalo in SB.  I lost some face too.  In spite of this, I didn't care.  I gave the situation love, cleared that karma, packed up my things and went to live with some friends in the California desert.  I floundered there for awhile, running a hundred scenarios through my head as to, "what I wanted to do with my  life." Once again, I was faced with the reality that there was nothing I wanted to do.  For the record, I have many talents and skills, and a fantastic resume to back that up.  Landing a job wasn't the issue.  Wanting one was.

Long story short, I was so crippled by disinterest, I realized I had to leave the USA.  There was absolutely nothing about life in America that interested me.  If I was to survive this transition and transmutation with my sanity in place, I had to go somewhere, do something completely different.

In March I moved to China to teach English.  I am 52 years young, so bear that in mind.  Moving to China saved me in a sense.  I also think it has readied me for what's to come.  I still struggle with motivation and interest.  Most of the time, all I want to do is sleep or let my imagination run wild.  I am a talented musician, yet my guitar sits in its case un-played.  I haven't the interest to play it.  I have absolutely no idea what I want to do.  

Teaching is new to me and I find it very rewarding and exciting.  I give it my all and it has been a great learning experience.  Perhaps my future revolves around this?  I don't know, but every day in China is an adventure.

I appreciate your blog and send you my love and light.   I also admire you for feeling this way.  In some indescribably marvelous way, it is a fabulous place to be.

-MF

I can't say exactly when it became more than just a mood or attitude, but lately everything you described relating to your profession is true with mine. There's also no rational explanation about this shift because one could argue that I have pretty much the ideal in-home small business one could possibly have. In business since 1991, at the top of my field, on staff electronic/computer engineering for 2 radio stations and with national service agencies troubleshooting networks there is variety, challenge and accomplishment. yet absolutely no interest any longer. It is also true that I have lost all possessive interest in material things in general.

Blessings to a fellow traveler on the Path to Oneness

We are likely in a void just now entering a new. Even the ones that keep their same careers will treat them differently in our future, we all just hope that future is actually "soon??"

And our careers will treat us different as well. For many though there will be abundant choice in very unique jobs to do. We have a planet to clean up and rebuild everything about it from the bottom of the Seas to the top of the atmospheres.

I would bring comfort to you by saying the triggers for much of this will be pulled by end Augt, this year, but who really knows "when" but The Almighty?

In the Energies blessing us at this segment of our linear time, this is an excellent time to actually open the "third eye," go to work on that and do it relentlessly!!! Command it so from the Lord God of your Being...

The Light is forcing the hidden out of it's hiding places and as soon as we do actually get a grip on the cabal once and for all with or without the promised assistance of the Star Beings we will be able to progress like never before. We must MAKE the dark dissolve and in many cases this will include permanent removal from planet for many of them.

This is where I don't see how we can do that until we regain the portions of funds they have stolen from us all. Which is just about 97% of all monies on planet. Otherwise we better have a Galactic Federation for support, even if they have to work behind the eyes of the ones that choose to live in fear of Them. If they met Them the fear would dissolve on the spot, so I'm not sure why so many times "They" have justified again and again why they won't come on down, They said that they were approved by Heaven's Decree Augt, 4, 2012??? Something is wrong with the information from the alleged channels? Many of them have spoken many times now with forked tongue.

Prayer helps, meditation will at the least assist the one doing it, but this is something that ever single one of us need to support or at the least allow.

I know exactly what you are saying and for me this first happened in 2011.  I`ve been thinking of it as being unplugged.    There is a burnout feeling associated with it for me.    The ascension energies are intense and there are many vibrations which I think are pretty heavy almost.    As I started to change as you describe there was no  conscious decision to change, it just evolved.  It is really cool to read your message and see that I am not alone with these personal insights that seem so obvious as we navigate and acknowledge them. Take care.

Hi, after reading all of your posts, I feel so much better about where I am in my life right now!!  I'm a stay at home mom of 3.  Life has been a hard struggle, and just seems to get harder.  About 6 or 7 years ago, I lost my interest in working the 9 to 5 J.O.B.  I've been called lazy by many.  I have always been a hard worker, even having 2 jobs at a time.  I lost all interest in anything that was not service related...and even that...I just couldn't seem to find the gumption to go after anything.

Along with the difficulties inherent in raising 3 small kids (2 who are special needs), I also experienced very intense ascension symptoms, which at times debilitated me.  I could not imagine going to a doctor's office to try and apply for disability insurance.  What would I tell them??

The pressure from my in-laws, and husband have gotten pretty intense lately to find a J.O.B.  I just can't do it.  I just can't get a dumb job.  I feel like I'm waiting....waiting...for what...I have not been sure of.  Lately, I've felt more strongly that I am right where I am supposed to be in life and that the Truth will be made clear very soon...and I will have full understanding and acceptance.  Also, that all of my and my family's needs are being taken care of.

It's heartening to know I'm not the only one experiencing this.

Peace,

Jen

I feel EXACTLY the same. Im an airline pilot and normally fly to Japan, Europe, New Zealand, Middle East. I like exploring new things whenever i nightstop but recently ive just been not bothered with Earthly things. I find it difficult to concentrate on work and the only thing that im bothered with is thinking about these changes, how so many people are showing more Love towards each other and i just enjoy looking at the night sky and stars. Something i can actually do alot in the aircraft.

Dear Arizona,

    Thanks so much for your moving blog (hate that word!) letter is better!  And to all of you good luck to you all, Fantastic sharing cos I have been feeling the same way for months now and it just seem getting worse!!!  Luckily I have a long summer hoils right now even that is difficult at times as it is still chop wood carry water just to survive shope clean etc. keep house and family going.  Can relate to the chap who went to China, I left UK when i was young for Asia and it kept me sane for a while though after a time that drives you mad too and I come back home!  Last time I went to China I couldn;t take it anymore, the people the traffic etc. About the only thing I can still do with any panache is write poetry and articles! Even then I don;t care much about being published or the usual blandishments of ego!  Some days it is s bad I am paralyzed almost and very depressed, last month I stood on a city street and under bated breath cried out Lord I can;t stand it anymore! Fortunately not every day is like that Somretimes I feel hatred of people God earthly physical life with all its pain tedium slavery and struggle and demeaning vicious violence etc. and sympathize with the great Dostoevsky:  I love mankind but I can;t stand people!!!  All the love new age fluffy stuff sometimes I can;t relate to at all. Other moments I am in deep peace just watching things happen don;t even mind if it all goes down the pans there is a deeper fathomless being somewhere I will always be somehow....My guides recently told me to take it easy so doctors orders!  Not to feel guilty if I can;t do anything much...don;t know what is going on and or how it will pan out I seem almost in slow motion movie but very fast days just blip by - paradox.  I have a plan somehow not to work again in a heavy 3d under the cosh sort of way anyway and there is promise of abundance but always just round the corner - like the New Age!If I do have to go back to my old job to survive and the wife will throw me out to pay the mortgage!  I really will go mad!!!

    Love to you all be gentle with yourself these strange times indeed this could be heaven this could be hell in the words of the song!

    God Bless us 

     Al

Hi FlashRon....and everyone.  Since you mentioned it, I have also been noticing the patience, "pay it forward attitude", compassion, and general friendlier attitude of people around town.  There are still those horn honkers out there..but not as often. (I'm in No. Calif as well)

For Alanry...I have felt that was as well....I believe I experienced that intense anger/grief/depression etc right before I shifted even more in awareness.  Perhaps it is a stage we go through in our awakening process...realization that everything we thought was real....was actually illusion can be shocking for many...shocking to the ego for sure.  When you feel that way, visualize yourself surrounded by all of our love for you, you are right where you are supposed to be. :)

For myself, I've been working on "unblocking" myself from fully experiencing everything I'm meant to.  In my earlier days of awakening, I was looking outside of myself for answers.  But even those sources (including Abraham), told me that all I seek is within me...that I (ego)  am in my own (spirit) way!  Patience was the key.  Now, I can honestly say I finally have gotten it...and I have learned how to achieve what I need.  

It's always in looking back, that we realize we have always been on our path, learning what we needed to learn, to climb the next step.   I really appreciate reading about all of your journeys...a further proof that we are all one...and are experiencing the same things. :)  I'm excited to discover what is next!

Namaste

Dear Mozart Floyd,

    Great name, thank you so much for your letter,  I can't keep up with this site finding this link was difficult in just one day!  But I think it a really important one and so thankful for that opportunity to be brutal honest as also many of you have been,  Glad you are enjoying China and heading out of city, how many temples and mountains I have been to!  Envy is coming back but I just don;t do the travel odyssey buccaneering thing so well anymore and it;s not just age it's more than that,  As the Byrds Bible said there is a season for everything.  My season right now is I have to somehow remake my world like a little god on the First day! with God's help and grace of course! But interesting many of us are feeling so not of the world, it's a feeling I had all my life but it's intensifying. The question remains how does one exist in a world one fundamentally is done with - of old I think some highly evolved lamas and yogis and taoist immortals disappeared some went into light body other men and women ran for the hills from Rome from whatever horrors of their times to monastaries ashrams caves etc.  some dare say went mad or hit the drugs drink whatever to bury the pain of their disconnection we are always only prodigals always only and ever passing through on our way to god knows where.     Human condition hasn't changed - right now I am reading a marvellous book about the early Christian world - many ways a lot like ours, they thought Christ's return  the Kingdom come was just around the corner too and the new earth would come and corrupt rulers get their cummupence - they lived in constant eschatological high alert! Two thousand years on well here we are!  Sometimes I have my love moments too but I always return to sense this is a war and it is life and death now and I simply don't know how much longer I can go on flogging the dead nag of old Adam as I call lurching on in 3d!  So something has to give something has to break but I don't know if I can do it or if we can do it.  I don't appear evolved enough to be able to do a disappearing act and going to Switzerland to ask the doctor for a pill, well I jest...one thing is for sure the reptoids that on one level engineered us don't take their teeth out of their food source that easily!

        It was nice talking to you dear friend go well,

                Al