Consciousness

A while back, I have been subject to experiments, implementations of technology not aware from where only in conscious fields, its an override in our own self navigation much of witch builds up to ones own suicide a "machine" capable of manipulation self seperation altered states, able to split our self within creating beliefs capabilitys almost only that one can think of as alien technology, some intense times in the past definetly amped up in december starting after I sended an email to the white house, I knew a lot before dooing so without actually knowing, it seemed to just go by itself "my descisions" while my soul was sitting watching unable to break free. It was insane and I knew in that time it was possible yet never said much about it, how do we speak of such things that are 99% unable to be conceived, plus the energies arriving from galactic core I... they killed ppl this way I am certain, it function by downloads and synchronisity they triangulated on my position multiple times in a day, by phone calls on my cell I still have the logs you see november with 7 calls and october only had 7 of em to and these where ppl calling me friend or familly in december I GOT 53 CALLS and they are UNKNOWN NUMBERS and when I did answer them NOTHING NOT ONE VOICE I remember I got in lots of concepts wherein my path CHRONOLOGICAL path was perceive in some incredible matter implementing EVERYTHING perceived they had total communication INSTILLED FEAR DRIVEN for breakdown and brain wave cycle ramp ups ITS INSANNE you know my blogs on here and much of it was so I could break free or so I had intense comunication in april 2011 GRIND was put in place IM not sure what experiments where going on back then but I had grind created for symbolic implementations to get out of the intense cycles carried out in december & its some kind of machine concept quantum form frequency bands... Im starting to remember now IM just telling you some things arent meant to be said because of fear based patterns from known possibilitys... Youtube was one of their implementations "source for further experiments and communication" A lot of videos I remember having watch and even up to comenting on some out from my will mesured distinctions in further experimentations I had a mix of normal ppl that receive some messages while the ones meant and conceived dismissed for further attemps. I was perceiving their comunications within tv on certain channels it was advance I just I cant my parents where involved in some of what happened and.... It seemed as two oposit forces one implementing manipulation while the other "soul implementations" amazing drive and possibilitys concepts superimposing the technologie in play, on the 20th I think it was when I went in tiny chat room and seen for the first time father mother god It was something huge going on in the background a lot of info receive telepathically had oposing forces as a greater picture beeing shown after wards I went outside last thing I remember I looked up at the sky an red cloud glow over my house alien like feeling and sharp pain in my belly had received message as opposed to soul purpose bowing down its insanne theres too much I had going on  I got no idee what it was for whom it was from its caching up since I started writting this I feel extremely light headed I just Im remembering its a lot..