Wishing for someone's understanding of my words, spoken Here.

Before you read this, it contains literature mentioning drug use, along with sex. Be warned, but truthfully were all like 210 years old anyways, so I think you can all handle it.

Hello, I AM Tyler Howell. Recently my mission has become a lot more obvious to me, and I feel that I may be channeling information whether I believe it or not. See, I make music; I rhyme. I do not write nor have I ever written, it is all in my heart and comes out whenever I have the energy and the Will to do so. I recently came across a "rare" set of videos containing a channeler of Saint Germain. When the woman descried what happens to her and where she "goes" it somewhat scared me, and I feel that perhaps I am being propositioned to channel. I am led by the number 144 quite frequently, and I Am wondering why. I have also felt the exact experience that woman spoke of; all of the sudden I am soaring in every direction infinitely and hear the most beautiful music and blast through many different layers until I reach the Light, and I do not remember reaching the Light. My friend and I were hanging out one night, and we were searching for mushrooms, but were unable to get them. My friend really really wanted to trip, and I proposed that he ingest dextromethorphan, which is obviously a horrid drug but he wouldn't shut up. We obtained the dxm, and I had no intentions of using it, and was going to give it all to him. Well, he had ingested an anti-crazy pill for some unknown reason so I was somewhat worried for him to take something affecting his brain so strongly. When I looked at the pills they contained 411, which drew me to go ahead and half it with him; both for his safety and also my own careless curiosity. After we had consumed the delivery system I decided to meditate and wait for a dirty, horrid trip. I suppose that I fell asleep or something, we both woke up at the exact same time and looked at eachother with scared faces for some reason. I remembered where it was that I went, well just the experience. I had the exact same experience that the woman who channeled Saint G, and it changed my perspective on fear afterwards. I feel that I was told something, and that something that I was told really gave me some comfort as to "what will happen". Flash back to Now, and a few nights ago I was watching those videos. I felt the presence of some-One and felt as if I was being propositioned to channel. My question to the users of this website is what TRULY happens to a One that chooses to allow a channeling, and how would such a thing be accomplished? I feel a connection to Sandalphin "however you spell it", Raphael, Melkalzideck (whatever I typo because I'm cool), and I feel an extreme trust towards Michael. I do not have quite the same experiences as others , the only orbs I ever see are blue, and occasionally pink or green. Once though, while the same friend was asleep on my bed, I walked out of my room, I had a chilling feeling (haha that sounds dope, chilling feeling) and looked back as I closed the door and saw this amazing tall white glowing "Be-ing" behind me, then he dissapeared as soon as I looked at him. One second after, my friend woke from his sleep and followed me downstairs. Him and I have been best friends for a very long time, and in the area that I live, we are possibly the only spiritual people within 100 miles of any direction. We are both extremely gifted musically, and we have a plan to make it big. I like to wake up in the morning and throw on a beat I have never heard before, and turn on my webcam and just KILL it. Only once that day. I have a series of these videos as of Now, and I have noticed what is happening is I Am communicating to my self, it is somewhat scary, and at the same time very very very helpful. My dreams have become extremely helpful, and I Am finally to the point of REAlizing them, at my own pace of course. I'm not so sure why I keep typing, or even what my objective is with this post at this Now, but I have many questions and concerns woven into each word I have typed, and I hope that someone has the Will the answer some of them if able. Or maybe give me some pointers as to what I should do with this gift. I am extremly and I mean eeeexxteeemely empathetic, and it is at a point now in which I am able to give all those around me what it is that they want. I visualize peoples intentions in a way that is completely schizoid, but from a higher perspective it is them telling me what it is that they want. For example, during intercourse I just knew that this girl had a thing for vampires, and I knew what it was that our intercourse was for Her. I imagined vampire teeth on her breasts, so I assumed she wanted me to suck and bite a little yah know? Well she along with every female I have ever been with claim that I am the best they have ever had, and they act like they're on drugs after were done. Me on the other hand, my sensual work feels like exactly that; Work. It is more than a pleasure to me, I literally find my enjoyment from a job well done by being able to perceive the world around me, and use my gifts to bring it into manifestation. I just wonder if I Am a monster, a vampire. I take peoples problems and absorb them into my own self, and bring them to the Light in time, after which I Am able to help that person through my words. If I am smoking with someone who is trippy, I can feel that they are trippy before they show sings that they are, and as their trippiness progesses, I become trippy as well. I take energy willfully and transmute with  my own experience. I really wonder if I Am a vampire, and the idea makes me feel uneasy, but also a deep part of me smiles when I think of this as well. At least I Am a nice one, that helps people.. I guess. Any pointers, any comments, any thing at all is greatly appreciated. I Am only 18 years old and have much left for me to accomplish here. I Am always open with my truths, and some may find this openess to be "TMI" but it is not, it is transparency and honesty. For are we not all monsters in that sense? Aren't we all sinners? Last night I had a dream in which I went to Detroit, and I have never even looked at pictures of Detroit, but as always in my dreams I was with my "people" and we went some places there and I just knew that it had to do with Music. Obviously I should go, does anyone know of any good starting points in Detroit? I Am Tyler, signing out. Much Love, Namaskaar.