My perspective is changing...

So I did my first cleansing ritual with white sage last night. Which was amazing, changing, evolving, renewing, beautiful and mind blowing for me all at once. I didn't read about the sweet grass until after, thank you for that. I am saging whenever I feel something enter my aura I do not like until I can get sweet grass. What method should one use for the sweet grass after smudging? Also I am noticing things more clearly regarding my actions and others, and although others do not act aware. For example my mother is a beautiful woman and I love her with all my heart but I am noticing she is a very negative person, I ever noticed before as she somehow makes everything she does seem positive, I'm not saying she is negative 100% of the time. But my observation in the last 24 hours is she is quite negative I want to say more than 50%. Considering I am her eldest, I do not want to believe this but being in plain sight I am not having a choice but to see it. I am noticing after thinking back that over the years I am recognizing patterns and this bad influence that I did not notice before. I am also noticing it in others. I am doing everything I can to stay positive but I cannot help to wonder, am I the negative one, and am I projecting it onto others? Not everyone I have talked to today has shown negativity but about 4 out of 5 people I have talked to today have. I am really hoping I am not the negative one. I have started listen to the 8 part tools on mastering alchemy website today, which provide applications to allow me to manage myself and my energy, grounding, etc. I am thinking positive but with the odds 4 out of 5 within a few hours man, that is why I am questioning if I am projecting it. I don't feel I am and haven't noticed it, when people are negative I have been trying to either not get involved or if I have to then I do my earnest to stay positive as much as I can hoping to counteract the negative mumbo jumbo. I feel very sensitive to energys as I knew I was but never before realized how sensitive I am to it. Any advice, answers to questions, questions for more information, feedback anything is welcome and openly appreciated.
Peace & Love,
Crystopher StarShine

p. S. A little background on my mom: when I was a child(under 4) she was into metaphysical understandings, then her grandmother died and she says she witnessed her go to God, and at that moment she believed there was one god, and never believed there is a god in each if us(so to speak(as I do) she left the metaphysical pursuit and went baptist, sense then (which is what I can remember) she was never the same open hearted person, more and more over the years she seems to be for personal gain rather than just being nice and helping each other, she never completely agreed with metaphysics. I cannot say I do or not until I have experienced every aspect of it, until then it feels right in my heart, my soul, and my mind. I feel outcast because it seems all my family and former friends(prior to my awakening) all seem to be asleep and do not want to open their mind to try it they find it easier to conform to the lives "they are told to live, rather than live the lives they choose to live." I am noticing people who are not consciously awake just by observing their actions and behaviors, and now it seems I feel I need to remove myself from prior friendships and even family at least at this point in life because I am trying to work on myself and being around negatively unaware individuals is making it very difficult.
Okay I went on a little more than background on my mom, but it seems that is what I am meant to input here, not that I need to say that because psychically I am getting the sensation that that is an unspoken mutual understanding among awakened individuals.
Again any feedback, questions, request for more info, and advice is openly available.

P. S. To the p. S. After putting all thid down I am feeling I am not projecting negativity and am merely noticing it much more than I can ever recall, and it seems there is a lot in this world, it make my soul weep and saddens my heart, If my conclusion is incorrect or even correct considering the above info please feel free to let me know what you guys think. Double confirmation on things as delicate as these seems like it would do wonders.
Peace, Love & Light