At times it is difficult for me to articulate an experience, however I shall make my best efforts to display in this text, what I feel in my soul.  I finally feel at home again -- I had been so lonely for so long, and felt lonely, even amongst vast crowds No that I wasn't happy, I have a wonderful husband and family... but I was homesick for a place I had forgotten. I had become an amnesiac.  I've always known deep within myself that there was more out there than the 3d experience I was existing through.  You, my dear family, have made me feel alive again.  I no longer have that aching sorrow -- which had resonated in me for so long.  I had stared so far into the abyss... that it was all I saw.  I had become insecure and hollow.  But now I'm brimming with joy, and my heart is aflame... and I have my whole family to thank for that... those of you on the press, and my husband and kitties.  For the first time, in a very, very long time -- I feel understood... and THAT my dear family, means more to me than I can possibly put into words.  Until next time... Namaste, and all my love. "I am what I am, and you are what you are... and we're all that is", Jason Mraz.  Until next time. xoxoxoxo ~~~~AMANDA~~~~