God said:
How can it be that anyone would refuse happiness, yet this happens every day. You may not perceive this. Sometimes in retrospect, you may see how you did turn happiness away.
Perhaps you start in a certain direction, and then you feel tied to that direction. You started one way, and you don't quite know how to switch directions. You may not even think of switching onto a different track. Somehow, even if you think of changing tracks, you don't know how to switch in the middle so you postpone and wait for later.
It is as if you are in the habit of drinking black tea. You could try green tea, yet green tea isn't on your agenda. You may just like your creature comforts the way you like them, even when the past doesn't do it for you any longer.
It's not exactly that you are in a rut. It's just that you have tunnel vision. In a way, the ways you are used to are like your posture. When you have been slumping your shoulders, it's not so easy to revamp your posture. Yes, you have the posture you are used to. Yes, habit is the word I am looking for. Habit says a lot.
If you were fresh every day, if you would start anew every day, you would revolutionize your own happiness.
I know you want to be happy. You have begged to be happy. Sometimes happiness is thrust before you, and there you are, a recipient of great happiness. Sometimes you see happiness out of the corner of your eye, or you would wrest happiness from someone else if you could. Somehow you do know that happiness is meant to be yours.