God said:
There is trouble that seems to come to you that is, of course, just what you don't want. At the same time that you wouldn't predict difficulties for yourself, you also tend to invite them to yourself. You don’t want it, yet you bring it to you. How do you bring it to you? With your sense of bad luck, as if you have no choice. You may have given up on yourself and offer yourself blindly as a sacrifice to a fate you do not want.
Here is the sort of self-talk I hear you say. Such talk puts you down, and I ask you politely to leave off discouraging and defeating yourself with comments like this:
“When was the last time anything came easily to me? Why do I always get the short end of the stick? Why is life so hard for me?” And so on.
You make your own prognosis. It is not clear to you that this is what you are doing. You just don't see it. You see you are being forthright and honest. See now: By your words, you welcome difficulties to you. It’s like you say:
“Over here. Trouble, come right here. I have been expecting you. Over here.”
Beloveds, you do not hear yourself, yet you anticipate difficulties and so you invite them in as you might an old friend. Yes, you have formed a bond with that which you don’t want, yet you have such a familiarity that you keep beckoning to negativity, as if you wouldn’t know how to get along without keeping the God forbids right near you.
You might say:
“Do you see how trouble finds its way to me? Trouble chooses me. Even my computer causes me trouble half the time.”