I have spent many years ...

many lifetimes with this inner feeling of numbness

a dull pain and sadness... that i could never put my finger on.

so i did everything i possibly could to fill this gap...

i tried fame, fortune, materialism, drugs, money and power...

none of these worked.

i tried religion, education, philospohy, medicine, science...

the more i "educated' myself... the more confused i became.

i tried mothering as an occupation... which ended in smothering...

only pushing away that love i wanted my children to feel, by trying too hard

i tried to fill this empty space with love... that did not seem to work either.

no matter how hard i loved,,, the harder my heart broke inside.

i lost myself along the way.

searching for others to fulfill this need... this emptiness, this greed.

holding too tightly to love, because you fear it will never return...

this will not work

it cannot work

sometimes i feel guilty for every single pain humanity has suffered

other times, i feel as though i was tricked... trapped into this 3D box... reality?

To my brothers &n Sisters,I come to say hello,

Its really feel like home here,

I hope,that we may,be in Honesty and Truth

toward each others,

Remember This,In "Love & Unity"

We can do more,,,

For those,who hearts,is still like stone,

Let them be,Sooner or later,their heart will soften

Their arrogance,s will soon, fade away,into the mist,,,

When you share from your hearts,with no

condition,it will flow back to you,,,

When you love some one,it will never fail,

it will come back to you,when your not looking,,,

Remember this,treat each other with kindness,repect,love

even to those,who do not,do so in kind,

Sooner or later,they will remember that day,that deed,

you have done,

I myself have serve The Galactic Federation,Many life-streams